October 27, 2012
Reading my previous entries, they seem so immature, yet they are honest assessments of how I felt in those past two years. I feel as if I have grown from the girl I use to be, to finally a mature young woman who knows right from wrong, yet deals with the temptation that the devil decides to throw my way. Humans aren’t perfect and we can thank Adam and Eve for that.
I’m not perfect, and I refuse to pretend that I am. I have made mistakes after mistakes after mistakes, then to turn right back around and make more mistakes. But I am learning, I am a work in progress and I believe with a full heart that the Lord has something HUGE in store for me. I thank him for bringing me through those dark times. Everytime I read back to the 2012 entries, it plays out like a movie, so surreal, so out-of-norm, like it wasn’t me who went through everything, but it was and that’s what has helped me grow into the person I am today.
Everyday I try to better myself and understand my thoughts and feelings. I try to not deny what I am feeling and just deal with it. I’m human and humans are intricate creatures that the Lord has created and it’s up to us work ourselves out and walk in his footsteps.
I still have A LOT OF GROWING TO DO, and I’m sure dark days will come, but I can honestly say that 2012 has been a year of growth and happiness.
Much of that stems from a loving relationship with myself – with me accepting myself for who I am, finally, and just trying everyday to move on and learn more about myself.