August 27, 2012

I still dream about him… vividly. And it’s the most satisfying thoughts sometimes, that I can speak with him and have contact with him. Even though, it’s not really and never going to be real. I feel ashamed though, dreaming about another man when I have a man, but I can’t help who I dream about… it just happens.

This was soo vivid – I actually looked into HIS FACE – though his voice was slightly distorted and not really exactly like him, it was his voice, his mannerisms, it was him.

I don’t know why I dream about him and why he pops up when he wants too. I wonder if he dreams about me, or tries to get in contact with me, but can’t.

He no longer has the 347 #. I guess he moved on from that as well. There’s only Facebook and linkedin that I know of …

Temptation is a bxxxx and maybe I just played into it…in my eyes it’s harmless – I hope.

” I have had dreams and I have had nightmares, but I have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams. ” Jonas Salk #retrospect